ging

So, towards the end of last semester, I started thinking about some friends that I haven't seen in a really long time. I hadn't talked to them or anything. And I was basically thinking about how much I loved them, but that they didn't know it because we'd all moved on and were at different points in our lives, and that it's really okay.

Then Tuesday... Tuesday, the night I got home one of them IMs me. "Hey do you want to get together?" "Yes, yes, but no" So she's coming over tomorrow. I have no idea what I'm going to say to her, I don't know what she wants, or why she's trying to get in touch now. I'd almost rather be left alone, because I spent 12 years with her and then I left. and i just don't feel like she cared enough to keep in touch. I tried. I tried talking online. She was always distracted, and then we stopped trying. All of us, and it was fine. It wasn't fine, but it was.

Anyway, I don't know what I'm trying to say here, just that I wish she'd go away, but I'm glad she's coming over. Wish me luck.