i want to be your girlfriend.

i am a miserable excuse for a person. I totally am still head over heals for this guy and ... i think he's beautiful. not necessarily by his physical beauty, i mean he looks nice and all, but he's a gorgeous person as a person and i'm head over heals. have been for a while. and i can't stop thinking about him. We're leaving from here in a week and and then i won't see him again for three months. i don't know what i'll do without him. I totally want to be like "alexander, i love you" and then tackle hug him. but in a completely different way that "knee hug" him.