put me out of my misery.

I just want to curl up in a ball and cry. So many things... I'm lonely. I'm not happy at Truman, and I keep thinking that next semester will be better but I get scared thinking about what happens if it's not. What happens if I continue to be this unmotivated? I can't stay like this, I wonder about what life would be like if I hadn't left real high school. I wonder about quality of life now. And quite frankly, I'm not in a high quality right now. And I wonder if I'm depressed. And then I convince myself I'm not, but I'm not sure.

whatever